I'm wide awake, it's morning

Someone once said "Don't ask yourself what the world needs ask what makes you come alive". For the longest time I thought of this as the protypical hippie nonsense. But, lately I've started to think that I was wrong. I've spent the last two months working long hours for ACORN doing something the world desperately needs. And at the end of the day I fealt nothing but dead inside. I was almost completely divorced from the people and habits that sustained me. It's been a long time since I have read anything lifegiving. Over and over I found myself responding to the suggestion of someone I loved with "I'd have to quit my job to do that". So I did.

I am once again working in the Hearts and Minds basement sorting through books and I feal completely at home. I leave work feeling more alive then when I went in in the morning. I look forward to the next days task.

I've come to think that it's impossible to help others if I'm not healthy. I can't breathe into dry bones if I'm deflated. When I'm snapping at my best friends and pushing away people who care about me there's a problem.

So I raise me glass to artists and fools, to the open road and comfortable routine, to lovers and priests, to homemakers and all those who leave beauty in their wake.

As of now I take a vow against self righteousness. I reassert my priorities of church, family, friends, and home. My life should be about honesty and grace. I'm wide awake, it's morning.